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Giving Up On Recovery?

17 Feb

We all deal with the feeling of wanting to give up on recovery. The process takes a long time and we think that we’ll never get there. So we find ourselves wanting to just throw in the towel. We find ourselves wanting to go back to our destructive selves again because that seems easier than getting better. I know I’ve found myself wanting to go back to being destructive recently, and this time, be even more destructive. I felt that if I’m not making any progress towards getting better, then I was just going to have fun destroying myself because I need something to help suppress this pain I can’t seem to escape. This pain is deep within my soul tearing me apart every time I become aware of it again. You try to run from it, but you can’t. Your demons and the pain you feel deep within you tackles you repeatedly. You try to recover but you make no headway. You’re really trying, yet you see no progress. So, you figure…why not just give up? What’s the point in getting better anyways? You find comfort in destroying yourself so why not continue living this way? The thing is, that’s your demons talking and telling you these lies. They are constantly trying to convince you that you aren’t worth recovering. But you are. Living a life filled with pain and turning to destructive things to cope isn’t a life at all. It’s hardly a life. You spend your days just trying to make it through each day. Life isn’t meant to be lived like that. You’re young, you have an entire life ahead of you. Don’t spend your days praying for death to come to you. When it’s your time to leave this earth, you will. Until then, you should be living your life to it’s fullest. 🙂

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Posted by on February 17, 2015 in Uncategorized

 

2 responses to “Giving Up On Recovery?

  1. The Professionally Depressed Professional

    February 17, 2015 at 7:57 pm

    I’m so glad that you didn’t write that you could be happy. One of things I have learned in my own recovery is that vitality and resilience is the opposite of depression . . . not happiness. I think you touch on this point beautifully in your final line about living your life to the fullest. Thanks for the beautiful post.

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    • LiteraturexPrincess

      February 18, 2015 at 9:28 am

      Thank you for you comment. 🙂 I appreciate you thoughts on my post. That means a lot to me.

      I also do not believe in telling someone in recovery that they should just be happy. That’s just not possible. So many times I’ve been told that and I just hate it. But you definitely can choose to live your life to the fullest.

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