Hi, my name is Jacob Michael White, and I’ve been in recovery for about 5 years now. A few months ago, if you were to ask me what recovery means to me, I wouldn’t have known what to say. If you were to tell me 5 years ago that I would start a blog on recovery, I would’ve laughed. If you ask me what led me to finally stop, and smell the roses, and start my path to recovery, I would tell you this:
I was tired of feeling like a failure, and felt that I was going nowhere with my life. Upon graduating high school, I had everything figured out to a tee, but then I let my illness define who I am, and the rest piled up from there. It was a long and depressing road. What changed me 2 months ago was being hospitalized for the third time in my life. This time was different though. This time I accepted that I was sick, and learned that I helped myself get there. I realized that things needed to change. So I started to make those changes possible, and therefore I created this blog, a guide to living in recovery. Which has helped on so many levels.
Since finding recovery, my life is actually a good one. I enjoy it. There are times when my bipolar symptoms get the best of me, but through therapy, I’m constantly learning to manage those vicious attacks from my mind.
A wise professional once told me, the only way you are going to continue to stay positive, and have less of your illness control your life is to simply just do it. In better words to understand this, just live your life, and enjoy it. The rest will follow.
At that moment, I realized that recovery is my option, and I am going to do recovery the best way I can, which is by attending therapy, getting medicine regulated and being social. Speaking up and reaching out has saved my life numerous times.
So if being on six different medicines and having to attend therapy makes you feel week, don’t let it. I’m an example of success and let me tell you, recovery is possible.